{"id":7632,"date":"2020-05-08T05:00:27","date_gmt":"2020-05-08T12:00:27","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thewayoftheriver.com\/?p=7632"},"modified":"2020-05-08T05:00:27","modified_gmt":"2020-05-08T12:00:27","slug":"resting-star-watching-rock","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thewayoftheriver.com\/resting-star-watching-rock\/","title":{"rendered":"Resting on the Star-Watching Rock"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u200bIt\u2019s<\/span><\/em>\u00a0a difficult and strange time. Do you feel as though your spiritual life is suffering, your practice is hard or nonexistent, you\u00a0<\/em>don\u2019t<\/span><\/em>\u00a0have the community you need? Perhaps having a dedicated companion along the way would help. Consider my individual\u00a0<\/em>spiritual accompaniment<\/a><\/span><\/em>, a monthly deep dive into what most matters to you. Would love to have a\u00a0<\/span><\/em>free consultation<\/a><\/span><\/em>\u00a0to see whether it\u2019s something that would work for you.<\/em>\u00a0<\/span>\u200b<\/span><\/p>\n

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I am thinking\u00a0<\/span><\/span>about\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Neil Gaiman\u2019s writing process a lot. Gaiman is the author of\u00a0<\/span><\/span>American Gods, Stardust, Neverwhere,\u00a0<\/span><\/em>and my personal favorite, the graphic novel series,\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Sandman<\/span><\/em>, among other works. He has a very\u00a0<\/span><\/span>regular<\/span><\/span>, even rigid by some standards,\u00a0<\/span><\/span>s<\/span><\/span>chedule. He has a room in which he writes, and he is there for six (? I think) hours every day. He may get up to make tea or use the rest room. He may stare out the window for as long as he likes. And he may write. Those are the allowable activities.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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Staring out the window for as long as he likes is very important.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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Ever since I had the \u201cWithhold nothing\u201d revelation,\u00a0<\/span><\/span>I\u2019ve<\/span><\/span>\u00a0been wondering about this woolgathering piece. The looking out the window piece. I think of Madeleine L\u2019Engle, of blessed memory, who is most famous for the first in a series of books,<\/span>\u00a0A Wrinkle in Time<\/em>.\u00a0<\/span><\/span>(The movie by the same name can be burnt to a cinder and sent to Hell for all I care, by the way.)<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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L\u2019Engle<\/span><\/span>\u00a0was my favorite author (next to Tolkien) when I was young. In her memoir about writing and creativity,\u00a0<\/span>A Circle of Quiet<\/span><\/em>, she writes about how she no longer feels guilty about going out and lying on a star-watching rock<\/span><\/span>.\u00a0<\/span><\/span>She knew she\u00a0<\/span><\/span>needed\u00a0<\/span><\/em>to look up at the sky and watch stars (obvs) or clouds, to bask in the sun, or feel the evening New England chill. She\u00a0<\/span><\/span>knew<\/span><\/em>\u00a0it\u2014the\u00a0<\/span>\u201c<\/span><\/span>just being,<\/span><\/span>\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/span>as she described it\u2014was essential to her spiritual practice, as well as to her creativity and ability to write.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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I\u2019m<\/span><\/span>\u00a0not so good at\u00a0<\/span>any of this<\/span><\/span>. I mean, I\u00a0<\/span><\/span>suppose I\u00a0<\/span><\/span>contemplate my plants<\/span><\/span>. I touch the fern that, like an unruly cat or toddler, wants to be in the Zoom picture; I\u00a0<\/span><\/span>marvel at Sabrina the zebrina, and I enjoy so much the wandering of the philodendron-looking-plant-that-is-not-a-philodendron living in water next to Sabrina. I look out the window at the dogwood, the lilac, the scraggly red rhododendron, or the nearly busting-to-bloom peony when\u00a0<\/span><\/span>I\u2019m<\/span><\/span>\u00a0trying to find a word or when I\u2019m listening deeply to someone.\u00a0<\/span>That\u2019s<\/span><\/span>\u00a0all good. It is good.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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Considering the garden plants and trees\u2014the \u201cTree of Gondor\u201d dogwood is coming into leaf now and the petals of the gorgeous, rich pink are falling away\u2014is good for me. It is good to notice that the somewhat shadier side has more flowers left than the sunnier side. It is good to see and be in our little courtyard. I can feel it in my bones.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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I do these things too rarely. Too unmindfully. With too little skill and too little intention.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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What\u00a0<\/span><\/span>I\u2019m<\/span><\/span>\u00a0trying to say here is that for those of us of creative or mystical bents, contemplation, pure and intentional, is essential.\u00a0<\/span>And I suspect\u00a0<\/span><\/span>it\u2019s<\/span><\/span>\u00a0good for all of us, whether we identify with those descriptions or not. Just watching, just listening, just being attentive to the world and especially to the immediate, to the place in which we live. And just being quiet. Quiet.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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Not doing two things at once (or more\u2026oh COVID<\/span><\/span>+<\/span><\/span>ADHD brain\u2026). Not claiming that our practice is rich and full when\u00a0<\/span><\/span>we\u2019re<\/span><\/span>\u00a0typing or responding to emails while half-hearing a guided meditation in the background. Yes,\u00a0<\/span>I\u2019ve<\/span><\/span>\u00a0done that too.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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Can we just\u2026 stop?<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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Soon the lilac blooms will\u00a0<\/span><\/span>pass<\/span><\/span>\u00a0and it will be time to prune it. Soon the dogwood will be all over summertime leaves. Soon that scraggly little rhododendron\u00a0<\/span>won\u2019t\u00a0<\/span><\/span>even have the half-dozen big blooms it\u2019s working on.\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Surely<\/span><\/span>\u00a0they have things to tell me.\u00a0<\/span>Surely<\/span><\/span>\u00a0I can just look at them and do nothing else. Can\u2019t I?<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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And not only\u00a0<\/span><\/span>regarding the outside world<\/span><\/span>, but it is good to read, no? News flash, right? Not only is it good, but it is\u00a0<\/span><\/span>essential<\/span><\/em>\u00a0for a full, rich, helpful ministry. And I, particularly in these\u00a0<\/span>COVID moments, am finding is\u00a0<\/span><\/span>very\u00a0<\/span><\/em>difficult to do. So difficult.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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I am hearing similar things from other people.<\/span><\/span>\u00a0That reading, that solace, that friend of a lifetime, is suddenly too hard. People who have been reading steadily since they were 5, for more or less their entire lives, are so mentally and psychologically exhausted that reading is just too much.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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I can read the novel aloud that my wife and I are sharing. And I refer to my spiritual texts that I keep by my computer. But\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Spying on Whales<\/span><\/em>, I started this winter and\u00a0<\/span><\/span>haven\u2019t<\/span><\/span>\u00a0finished. Boswell\u2019s\u00a0<\/span>Life of Johnson<\/span><\/em>, a favorite of my father\u2019s, goes unread. And poor, poor\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Beowulf<\/span><\/em>;\u00a0<\/span><\/span>my dear Molly and I were reading it together, and we have abandoned him to the part where he tells the tale all over again. Perhaps we will work on it again soon. Perhaps?<\/span><\/span>\u00a0I both doubt it and hope so.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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The sky is blue today, friends, and the high is supposed to be seventy degrees Fahrenheit. I will pay attention. I will marvel at the moss in the courtyard.<\/span><\/span>\u00a0I will consider even the recycling, compost, and trash cans on the curb. I will watch for clouds and wonder about the pine that had all its street-facing branches cut off; it looks so odd to me. But I will look today.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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Will you look with me? Shall we lie on the Star-Watching Rock together?<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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So much love, friends, so much.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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~Catharine~<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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PS\u2014For those of you who know about Unitarian Universalist ordained ministry, a happy note. I have been welcomed into Full Fellowship\u00a0<\/span><\/span>(i<\/span>t\u2019s<\/span><\/span>\u00a0a little bit like tenure in Humanities in academia).<\/span>\u00a0I am\u00a0<\/span>delighted and amazed, really kind of shocked. Thank you so much for everyone who got me here.<\/span><\/span>\u00a0You are one of those people.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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